new chapter in my life

hmm.. yea.. i've started my degree life...
guess wat course m i studying? PHARMACY? DENTISTRY? hahaa.. den u r wrong..
is ACCOUNTANCY!! shocking right? even i had nvr thought of it even once.. is not in my list at all..
wat to do? straight A's for spm, pmr, upsr also failed to secure piln/pidn scholarship (pharmacy) or matriculation.. n u r expecting getting a place for public U n NUS (pharmacy&dentistry) with ABBC for alevels.. HA! HA! HA! dream on~
so,i buried my dream, passion a.k.a. 'fire' deep down my heart.. bt my 'fire' for it, is nt extinguish yt..

however, i'm ready for the new chapter in my life n willing to accept the new knowledge..
it started off with short sem.. n short sem is completely a torture for both students n lecturers.. for acc subs, 17chapters hav to b taught in 2-3mths + hav to sit for tests, quizzes, exams + hav to do assignments... poohh~ hell ya.. dahh.. 4gt about it.. i've study hard & smart, n strive for my target 1st clss honour!!!

apart from study life, i've frenz n classmates... new one yea.. wuwuwu... hv to re-adapt the new personalities, behaviours, attitudes of theirs.. (introvert, passive in cls, nt eating dinner, gender separation) as i'm adapting to those, i'm becoming lik them too... =.= y m i so flexible har? so easy to b shaped up by peers...
nxt nxt nxt, the very 1st batch of people tat i met r my ole groupmates n the nxt batch is my clsmates..
hmm.. out of so many tat i've met, i really cnt stand one of them... human c (let the identity of the person b secret) is quite pretty at 1st look.. poooh... n the pretty girl's attitude really sucks.. she's giving me the impression of play girl tat lik to manja manja guys to buy dis n tat for her, n quite often backstab frenz.. yea.. frenz..  human c cn act lik very close with u in dis moment, turn around, n starts saying bad words about u... poker face betul ni... wo bu yao guan ta..bleh~ bai bai..

i'm dead if my new frenz c dis.. XP
heheee... dis is a veryyyyyyyyyyyyyy late post.. btw, i'm ady in sem 2..
bt still hoping to get scholarships in pharmacy, n dentistry... hahaaa..

downhill of life

mum : girl, do u hav amulet with u?
me: ya, bt y?
mum : dis yr ur luck is so so... everything seem to be unsmooth..

dis conversation may seem to be superstitious... bt.. it's real.. really UNSMOOTH.. slowly i started to question?? izzit bcz of 'the power'?? fyi, 'the power' is buk about the ability to use ur 'power' to get wat u wan n wat u dont wan.. u hav to use it carefully~

back to my story..sept 2011... i was going to face my exam.. things kept on distracting me frm focusing on study.. being apart frm current frenz, some1, wat i really wanna b, my future, afta 10yrs wat i'll b, last trip, n wat's going to happen on the last day being with my awesome frenz in U......... damn!!! there r more in fact~
n so, lik attract lik.. i'm so nt aware of the -ve things to occupy dominantly (meaning, +ve power lose in the 'war' - for the 1st time), n 'the power' giv me wat i dont wan...
result was out in january 2012.. aint as expected~ tat feeling really nt tat gud.. try to imagine u falling into a deep well, no one cn c u, hear u, understand u.. sad huh?
i slowly healed.. still hav a little upset.. bt it is normal, cz every injury will left a wound..
started to apply scholarships, public U.. damn.... again, luck is nt by my side.. nt being chosen for public U interview.. n oso nt given jpa piln, pidn, n even matriks last time..... aikss... some hav poorer grade than me, cn get.. bt i jz dont get it.. dono y.. bt wat to do? there's no pause, review, n play again button.. life is still going on... i still hav to move on....
wait for admission letter, scholarship interview, pray hard, study hard during degree n get 1st clss honour.. i'm so helpless, so this is all i cn do nw...

the feeling of fear of losing, leave me alone.... i dont nid u.. i'm nt who i'm when u r here.. u jz get lost... i nid my life!!
so, god pls giv me more n more n more lucks, +ve thinking...... more n more......... n i nid u to b my side~ hope u hear me.. my voice~ my prayer~ god bless me... amitabha~

不能说的秘密

最单纯的感觉，是你留下最美丽的印记。
随着你的离去，
这秘密，也消失在空气中。


虽然知道最初，也是最应该做的是， 让你明白我的心。。

累

不再想太多。 太多的太多，我负荷不了。 换一个角度，有时候学着放弃，也未必不是一件好事。 简简单单，像当初那个的模样。或许会活得比现在开心。 太多的秘密说在心里，久而久之，也会填满了所有的空间。我好累....好累....不想了，顺其自然吧。。。或许哪天，会得到解答。。。

our friendship

it's all begins here~

this is chubby.. tat's hw our group name comes frm
CHUBBY GROUP-14MEMBERS-4MALE,10FEMALE

                                      1st & LOVE letter frm a frenz... XD ps: v r nt lesbian

another touching notes...

shirts tat v own 2gether... 

movie day with mayzie, irene, chee bing, hui ling, kangzi...
HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS PART 2

THINGS WITH SPECIAL MEANINGS.....
KEY CHAINS, STICKER, MOVIE TICKET, KTM TICKET, O'NITE TICKET JULY2010, CHUBBY...

perspective of views & the truth

we use our eyes to see the world,

our heart to feel it,

our brain to interpret things

our arms and legs to do actions,

our expression to express our feelings,
and yet,

the world that you see, may not be that perfect,

the feelings that you feel, might be just an illusion

interpretation that you think is valid, may be wrong,

actions that you do, may not satisfied everyone,

expression that others see, might not actually represent your feelings.

learn to view from different perspective,

you'll see and understand more..

be strong mentally and physically,

to survive in this complicated world~

the world is upside down,

a bad guy camouflage themselves.

by wearing a mask,

hiding away the real personalities.

what you see, might not be the truth of all.

the truth of matters is like an unknown in maths equation, have to seek for it~

LIVE TO LEARN, LEARN TO LIVE

「天將降大任於斯人也，必先苦其心志，勞其筋骨，餓其體膚，空乏其身，行拂亂其所為，所以動心忍性，增益其所不能。」